Follow-Up

this is a conversation i had with a very close guy friend of mine regarding yesterday's post:

what exactly are you looking for

when you dated or talked to those guys

that influenced that artcle that you wrote?

i am looking for something real

sick of being used for my body

there is a lot of depth to me, and i guess men just don't see it... maybe i just am not portraying myself the way i want

what did you see in them

that made you feel they were worth your time?

i was attracted to them. i think i felt that i had the capability of changing for the better.

but there is no changing them.

everyone has problems

even those that seem to be good to be true.

ugh so you wanted to change them?

they were bad guys?

'bad boy,' archetype?

yea

they were just looking for the physical. i thought i would have an affect on them to make them want more.

well

they tended to be closed-minded. not someone that would have the capability to understand and accept me for my shortcomings.

hmm

i mean what did you see in them?

i saw possibility.

the conversation veered off for a bit, but he got back to the questions...

so were u approached by them

or u did the approaching?

both

what do you want from a guy?

i want open-mindedness, understanding, compassion... someone i can have intellectual conversations with, but also someone who likes to joke around